Middle Of Nowhere

I've finally had time to process all my thoughts...and I feel like a completely different person. Almost like a weight has been lifted off my chest or something crazy like that. I woke up the other day and nothing was the same. I finally left the last 3 years in the past and now it's all blank and untouched. I've met new people, made the best friends with new people and I'm excited to let myself live again and actually enjoy it.

Wasted my time today downloading old school tunes from jr/sr high years. I just remembered how much those old tunes can change my mood simply by turning them up LOUD and mellowing out. It's awesome. Boring day not working though, definately considered getting all loaded up and what not...but I do work tomorrow; trying the responsible thing for once. Something I should have done like a month or so ago when I lost the only piece of paper that gave me my freedom. Bring on city buses and the taxi service this fall.

Nobody understands how stoked I am to go back to school and finally do something with my life that I should have done 3 years ago. I'm fixing all my mistakes these days and BAH...uni life is gonna be the shit. Never really realized how much there is to see in the world and Hazy just isn't going to get me there.

Bran'

So we completely moved into our house yesterday. It was kind of exciting to just walk in and be like "It's Ours!!" We got a couple of gifts yesterday at our house warming party, get together, whatever it is that you want to call it. It was actually a pretty wicked time hanging out with all the boys and then Niki love that girl.

My parents came down to help move us so in my gratitude I got Brady and Jade drunk. I thought Brady could hold his liquor and know when he'd gone way past the drunk stage. I couldn't have been more wrong. He ended up barfing and I had to run up to Pharmasave with my mom to get him some diphenhydramine. What a loser, but it was all in good fun. OH and I gave Kelly a nose bleed, definately hit him in the face with the back of my head when the toilet started to slowly overflow because of the tree roots that are growing in our sewage pipe. How appealing is that.

Other than that nothing much is new. Wedding plans are still under way but we can't do much more until we get the bridesmaids dresses; which will definately be weird considering the two of them are completely different body shapes. HAHA! But yeah I'm out!

Bran

Well, in the last while I have no idea what I've posted and what I haven't. AND I'm too lazy to check. So I got engaged, the wedding is August 18th,2007. Planning is so boring haha I just want it to be over and done with, I can't invite lots of the people I want to because I already have a gi-normous family so they're taking up alot of room haha.

Last night was my Pharmsave Staff Party at the Chinook golf course. I was in Regina for the day doing Christmas shopping so I decided to buy a dress after Kelly pretty much begged me to. I looked cute, I am not going to lie to you! We missed the supper because we didn't get in until like 7. We showed up at the golf course around 9. Gwendala was still there with Busse and the rest of the pharmacy staff too! It was such a good time, I should be a bar star or something, we were rocking that Karaoke so hard nobody knew what to do with me and Janhaya. Other than that I got super licked, Kelly drove me home. I was like dead haha, I was munching on the couch, we ordered out for the best pizza ever and I freaking passed out hard. Woke up this morning in bed a little unsure how I made it from the couch to the bed in the previous 7 hours. But yeah, everything is starting to feel more and more like home here. Between getting married and work, I am glad everything is playing out the way it is.

But now that I updated the last month of my life, I am going to watch the next Couple episodes of The OC season 3. Cant' quite get enough of that show!

So I've been doing a crap load of thinking lately about things in my life. It's totally not like me I like to kind of just go with the flow so I don't get hurt or make unreal expectations of myself. And I've come to this, I'm unsure whether or not I want to go to school next year, but I know I want to get married and start a family. I was never a person to want a family while I was young, but with the way everything in my life is going, it would honestly make me the happiest I could ever be. I feel so stupid for even considering something like that, considering I'm only 19 in three days. Its not like I have a rush on having a family, but I want that that with my life. I am so content with life right now, it just feels like there is still something missing, and that's the part, the family.

It's also stupid cause Kelly and I have only been going out for 8 months, soon enough to be 9. I think I'm just being gay and wasting time. Hah I probably am, but yeah, that's all. I just wanted to basically vent to myself kind of haha.
Bran'

Well..I got my transcripts back, now the bigger question is "Do I want to go back to university?" My answer is "YES!" initially. But then I think a little bit further into it, I have everything I want and the way the family life is right now is kind of like disappointing, and in the end I think I might end up missing spending time with the people I love just to go on and perform well in school when we all know I could do it in a couple years. Take a break off and stuff like that. Like how many people do I know have a diploma in a course, are members of three associations within Canada and work at the biggest Pharmasave in Canada?? NOBODY!


But in other news. If after December I don't decide to go back to school we are going to start looking at houses. It's just gonna be easier to pay the mortgage on a house rather than craploads of inflated rent. But other than that, everything is good. I turn 18 in a week and I'm wicked pumped about that, I will no longer have to depend on other people to pull for me, I CAN AND WILL go and get my own booze. Heck yes I love it! And besides that nothing else is new, I go to Edmonton on the 18th for my grad, which should be an alright time, it will be wicked good to see everybody I went to school with. Especially Heather, I miss that girl like crazy. But I think I need Donuts! BYE
Bran'

Life in Swift Current has been alright. Definately not what I expected. Love my job, love the people I work with. Yet it's still not feeling like home. I literally hate it here. I'm gonna be an alchoholic or something, starting young I am. But other than that, shit's good. Tonight I actually sat down and realized I don't know anybody anymore...everybody's changed and shit and they're all like fucking retarded. But hey, what do I know I'm out of the complete loop.

Spent the last couple weekend in Regina. They were alright, nobody ever wanted to boozer with me..I kind of thought that was the whole point in me going and staying in Rez but obviously it wasn't. I definitely had some regrets not going to boozer with Glazer. But what can you do.

In other news, I am applying to the U of S for the fall of next year..I intend on taking Pre-pharmacy. It was a big toss-up for a while there I wasn't sure if I wanted it to be Pre-pharmacy or Pre-Med. I know I could totally do both, but I decided Pharmacy was definitely the way that I wanted to go, plus I'm already in that field anyways. Other than that...nothing is really new with me. Alvie might be moving to Swifty so that's rank, have't hung out with that kid in forever and I THINK I might have just found my newest drinking buddy since everyone round here is amature. Hhaa, but I'm going I have to work in the morning and I should hit the hay.

Brand'

Lynda and Daryl are really great people and all but DAMN living with somebody else's parents is just way too complicated for me to do. Especially when they tell me things that are none of my business what-so-ever, or atleast that's just how I feel about some of the subjects. Other than that my first week of work went wicked good, so many cool chicks I work with and we are all super young. There is not a negative thing about it. But then on Friday I got an email from a person from Regina Health Region regarding a position in a hospital. I don't want it now but it would have been cool to have when I didn't know what I wanted. More money and people I actually know live there. It's harder for me to make friends here in my first week than it was in my first week in Edmonton haha. Weird how that works eh. I hate stupid gay cities. But that was my decision.

It was cool last night getting to talk to old friends and stuff. Made me realize that they really are there no matter what. I'm glad everybody is going somewhere, I always hoped they would. We deserve it cause we're rank. But yeah I am going to go find somewhere to party or something to do on this wonderful Saturday night.!

Brandi

After that job interview in Swift I got offered a wage the next day and I declined the first offer and accepted the second. I will be making pretty good money. It is the busiest pharmacy in Saskatchewan. It is open 365 days a year, 9-midnight on most days except for Christmas Eve and Christmas Day, they close early and stuff like that. I start on Monday, August 14th. It's kind of crazy because I finish up my hospital practicum on the Friday, move some crap to Swift and then I start work again on Monday.

We have also got an apartment. But for the first two weeks I am going to stay with Kelly's parent's it will just be cheaper that way and then we can like save up money before we have to move. Our apartment is super nice, in a family neighborhood. It's 900 square feet, with a 25 foot balcony and a fire place, washer, dryer and dishwasher. It's only like $600 a month, so that's wicked awesome that it's a super nice place and it's all trashed. I can't wait to finally have my own place kind of. I know after 2 weeks with Kelly's parents I will be going crazy and want to get out of there. Although I am really nervous about moving to Swift considering I only know Kelly's friends and people I've met while I was partying down there. Everybody else I will meet with be through work and stuff, so I hope it all works out good, it's a city with a small town feel and I love it.

What else is new, I had a family reunion in Moose Jaw this weekend, it was really nice to see all my uncle's and cousin's that came down. I haven't seen everybody in about a year or so, or else since the last funeral we all attended, but yeah. It was really good to see everybody and see what's going on in the next year as far as wedding's and family gatherings. We definitely need to do that more often, it makes everything feel just perfect when you dont have to worry about everything else that is going on around home and all that jazz.

Haha, I seen my buddy Justin in Pangman at the gas station before me and Kelly left for Moose Jaw on Saturday and he had absolutely no idea who he was talking to. I haven't seen him for a year and I really haven't changed at all, but according to him I did. I made him feel super ackward and shit just talking about everything and then he realized who I was. I unno maybe I'm just drop dead sexy now haha. But yeah that's all for now, I might update when I move and stuff. I'm so going to miss everybody from around here that I actually see on a regular basis. But shit happens and people change so it's all good.

Brandi

So, what's new with me you ask? I officially have an interview in Swift Current on Saturday July 29th, for a possible opening in the pharmacy department. I think it would be wicked to actually get a position that they would hold for me until I'm done my practicum hours in like 3 weeks. I also think it would be cool to be away from this town forever, only having to come back for holidays and that sort of boring stuff. I don't want to get my hopes up but I'm definitely looking forward to the days ahead of me, only like 3 weeks until I can leave this shit hole and all the useless people that seem to have once been very interesting. I am glad I got out of here for 8 months and realized there is more to life than old friends, there is so much out there for me to experience, I just need to live and say fuck the rest of it, I've made something out of a good mold here. But yes, that's all. I am just super excited to happen to get away from Hazy for the weekend, see Kelly and hopefully have a job after all is said and done.

brandi

Alot hit home tonight. I finish up my first practicum at Pharmasave tomorrow, tonight Alison, Kendra and Nikki went for supper at Conversation in Langenburg. It felt so right to have made it this far in my career and schooling. Alison kind of got lost by taking the wrong turns to get to Yarbo so I had to direct her, so see kids there is a point in going back-roading, you learn very valuable lessons for later on in life.

Alot more hit home tonight when I got a text message from Carol just saying "Hi". Carol was a mom I went to school with, she's in her middle-forties. Nicest lady ever, was always there when I needed help or support or anything. I miss her so much, and her little complaints about whatever, she was easy to get along with, she didn't seem like she was on a different page then me or anything. And then Heather texted me saying that "She misses me and needs me to be there tonight because of shit going on" and "She will probably come see me before my birthday because that's too far away." I have realized tonight what great friends I made in Edmonton while I was there. Even if I didn't stay there long or hang out with them all the time. They were the most amazing people I could have met, they've done so much for me, and there isn't anything I wouldn't do for them. I know it's rude but it's more than I can say for the friends I have made thus far in my life. These people are real and just totally get me. I miss them so much, it feels so wrong being home when everything I've come to know is 10 hours away in a different province doing everything I want to be doing.

Enough about my bitching. I am excited to start work at Moosomin on Monday at the hospital. It should definately be an experience that will shape my future at retail or institutional. I don't care which way I decide to go. As long as I love what it is I choose to do, I will be happy doing it. There are so many opportunities as Pharmacy Technicians these days that my future is endless. I can write a test and be certified wherever I so choose to be. I love there being a demand for pharmacy technicians in the market right now. I get that it will probably be hard to find my first job after coming right out of school. But I know I can do it. I know I have the drive to succeed. Thus far it has proven to be a fact that is totally true for me.

Brandi